Positivity or Peace

I think one of the most important parts of my conversion, which you can read in detail here, occurred after I was laid off from my lucrative job as a web designer. It was my dream job and it was the perfect setup, I could work from home with no commute and get paid a nice amount to do a job that was fairly easy for me. When I lost that position which I thought so highly of, in the middle of the recession, I felt unsecure for the first time in my life. With no one to bail me out I felt alone, but then I turned to God.

I remember falling to my knees alone in my bedroom and praying to God as tears of fear ran down my cheeks. I thanked Him for blessing me and I put my faith in Him. I just knew that there was something better for me out there, a reason why this was happening and a lesson that had to be learned. In the past year I must say it has been a learning experience, and although I lost my job, I gained a few more important things. Most importantly my beautiful wife, the freedom to be my own boss, a faith in God that I certainly never had, and a whole new outlook on life.

I remember a certain phone call with my mom where she was unable to understand my “positivity” when faced with the problems that life was dishing out to me. I told her that my positivity is rooted in my faith in God. It was God that had given me the strength to conquer my insecurities, surpass all uncomfortable situations, and He allowed me to finally find peace in my life. Certainly I still continue to have difficult experiences, but with God as the center of my life I find that these problems are minuscule in comparison to the great and glorious God who I think of as the trainer in my corner, ready to wipe the sweat off of my face and clean my wounds. I don’t dare think of throwing in the towel. Every time I am dealt a vicious blow, I know that with His words of encouragement I am renewed and ready to get back into that fight.